Holidays

Boredom
Anger
Sadness
Stress
This is my holidays

Death in the family

One of life's saddest things is to lose your family members...

姥爷我想你

Blog-Updated

Wow, I haven't updated my blog for what seemed like a very long time...
I have nothing much to say anyway...
Disappointed with results, sad about stuff, worried about piano exam...
Sigh...
A very big THANK YOU to Hui Ning here! Nicest person I've ever met. Can't stay sad around her for long...
Out of stuff to say...
Detached and in hiding...
Will be back...
Sometime.

My unfortunate day

I’ve just had the most miserable day I’ve ever had in my miserably short existence. Recount of misery:

1. Fell down really hard during PE (you will fall down hard if you are my size and gravity works), scraped knees, fingers and fingernails. Now my knees are 万紫千红, 紫from all the beautiful bruises and 红 from the lovely big patches if bloody flesh. I’ve decided that my 克星is Zhang Jie as she can make me get injured whenever I go near her, provided that it’s on the basketball court.

2. Nearly broke my ankle while chasing after Kaixin and Fangying, who rushed off to lunch. My ankle hurts now…

3. During lunch, Kaixin and I both decided that we want lemon chicken rice with long beans. Amazingly, Kaixin managed to buy both the last portion of the lemon chicken AND long beans! Grrr…

4. Flunked oral. Totally. It was absolutely horrendous!!!!! No more comments, my heart hurts.

Wrting this now with pain in my heart and on my physical bady, I hope tomorrow will be better...

The Knowledge Monster

One of the saddest things I've ever seen. There are no words to describe it, you can only get the feeling of it if you watch it yourself.

RS

I am posting this at Qianru's house, at an amazing 7.45 pm. Even more amazing, we are still doing our RS which started at about 1 in the afternoon. As the hours progressed, each single one of us is getting more and more crazy. We are laughing at random stuff. We had just finished eating dinner, which were noodles in about the biggest bowls that I have every seen in my pathetically short existance.

On the other hand, we have made quite good progree. Right now, Zhang Jie is ranting and raving next to me about how she will never ever ever ever touch RS again, and she is saying how she will leave all the editing to Tian Yuan, who is not here, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. She told me that I was sad as she saw me writing this. She loves the word sad ever since we started on Merchant of Venice. I think that Antonio must be posessing her.

As I write on, we are preparing for our presentation. Qianru is whining about how her whole day is ruined and Zhang Jie is tuanting me about how her has already finished her Bio journal. Qianru is saying how she has sacrificed her cards. Zhang Jie is calling me to go now. I better go before she murder the comm...

Loneliness

Say Hi to humanity’s worse fear, loneliness.

An introduction to loneliness:

Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than just the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any form of meaningful human contact. Lonely people often experience a subjective sense of inner emptiness or hollowness, with feelings of separation or isolation from the world.

Loneliness is not the same as being alone. Everyone has times when they are alone through circumstances or choice. Being alone can be experienced as positive, pleasurable, and emotionally refreshing if it is under the individual's control. Solitude is the state of being alone and secluded from other people, and often implies having made a conscious choice to be alone. Loneliness is therefore unwilling solitude.

In their growth as individuals, humans start a separation process at birth, which continues with growing independence towards adulthood. As such, feeling alone can be a healthy emotion and, indeed, choosing to be alone for a period of solitude can be enriching. To experience loneliness, however, can be to feel overwhelmed by an unbearable feeling of separateness at a profound level. This can manifest in feelings of abandonment, rejection, depression, insecurity, anxiety, hopelessness, unworthiness, meaninglessness, and resentment. If these feelings are prolonged they may become debilitating and prevent the affected individual from developing healthy relationships and lifestyles. If the individual is convinced he or she is unlovable, this will increase the experience of suffering and the likelihood of avoiding social contact. Low self esteem will often trigger the social disconnection which can lead to loneliness.


But why are we afraid of loneliness? Basically, it is the sense of being absolutely cut off from the world, that you have no more importance and you are absolutely alone. It is an extremely scary feeling. Personally, I am very scared of being alone. Must be something to do with the fact that I am seen as a ‘loner’ from young. During any activities, I try to stick with people, no matter they like me or not, it’s just the feeling that you do not ever want to be alone.

However, it should be remembered that feeling lonely is a common human emotion experienced by everyone at times (and therefore is not a defect). Intimate friendships take time to develop, and sometimes it is useful to help deal with the loneliness by sharing your experiences with someone else.

Ending this short post with a shorter message:

It does not matter if you are lonely, everyone will be lonely at times. Accept the fact that you are a unique individual that is important and people do want to interact with you!